Wednesday, January 21, 2009

So many emotions for one day...

Well, there will be good days, and their will be not as good days. Today for Mom was good, but not as good as yesterday. They did a chest x-ray this morning, which they do every morning, and it did not look as good as yesterday's. She appears to be getting a fluid buildup around her lungs. This can have implications with breathing, but can also cause congestive heart failure. They are giving her diuretics to try and help her body to clear that stuff out. I will be anxious to see how tomorrow's x-ray turns out.



Also, after a lot of futzing, I think today's nurse may have gotten close to balancing out her pain meds so she is not in excruciating pain half the time. I sure hope so. I am not sure if it was the pain or something else, but she is just not eating enough food to make her body function. The doctor wants to put the feeding tube back in, so they can at least give her the nutrition her body needs to help her get strong. She is unsure about that, so I told her that she needs to sleep on it, and we would talk about it in the morning. She was just so tiny to begin with, she doesn't have the mass to go too many days without proper nutrition.



I saw Dad for a few minutes today. He woke up just for a little while and I was able to share some good and miraculous news I got today with him. My wonderful, strong, funny, down-to-Earth friend found out last month that she would be battling lymphoma for the third time. The last time, the chemo did so much damage to her heart that she had 2 open heart surgeries in 4 months, and it still doesn't work quite right because of that. So, the news that she would have to go through treatment again in her 39th year of life was almost too much to bear. She called today, and then sent out and email announcing that, through some strange lymph system condition that can be caused by Hodgkin's Disease, the biopsies came back negative, and she is cancer free!!!!!!!!!! They had gone so far as to put in her port for the chemo, and the doctors planned on using a chemo formula from the 50's to avoid any further damage to her heart. My Dad was so happy, and he started crying and could not believe how amazing and great the news was, and...Then he dozed off. I waited a few minutes and came home.


Then, on Facebook, I was contacted by one of my good friends throughout Jr. High and High school. A wonderful surprise after 19 years. I knew she had married a guy from our school, and as I read into her profile, I realized that he passed away over Thanksgiving.



What a heart-wrenching, joyous, maddening day. So many hi's and low's in just one day is hard for me to deal wit

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