Made it through another day...A little less crying, which was difficult because I was reminded how many special people are in my life. I got emails, cards, flowers, hugs, IM's and more. So many who love me and loved Tucker, who care enough to take the time out of their busy lives to share that. So many blessings...
I saw Dad yesterday and for a few minutes last night. He seems to be doing well, but he is still confused. It is weird, because it is not really confusion, but just so random. I really thought I blew it big time last night. Just as we were leaving, Dad said "so, just one more thing, I think you ought to put my shoe in the car." I asked "which car?" He said "my car...In case I want to drive up to Barona later" So, I say "your car is at home in the garage." Well, this just destroyed him. He kept telling me that I had ruined all of his plans and he was almost crying. It just broke my heart.
I have such a hard time trying to figure out what I am supposed to tell him. I am hesitant to tell him "ok Dad, I will put the shoe in your car for you," but I also don't want to break his heart over and over. I guess the good news is that tonight, he had forgotten all about it. Tonight, when I was telling him about taking Mom on Thursday to UCSD, he said "I might drive up there too..." I diverted and changed the subject and he was none the wiser. I just hate to patronize him, but I am just not sure what the best way is to handle it all. One day at a time...;)
Much love!
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