A note about the memorial and how we are doing...

Due to some unforeseen circumstances, it looks like we will be pushing the memorial service for my Dad  to mid to late April.  I will keep everyone posted via the blog, and as we get closer to a confirmed date, I will let you know.

In the interim, if there is anything you would like to do to honor my Father, you could always donate money, your time or your blood in his name.  As you know, my Father was a very generous man.  He was always willing to commit to helping others in any way possible.  There are many worthy causes out there, but if you do not have a favorite charity, some of Dad's favorite were the American Cancer Society, Sports-A-Thon, Special Olympics, the Rescue Task Force and the American Heart Association.  I understand that the economy is in a really bad place right now, so if it is not in your power to donate money at this time, there is always opportunity to donate your time, or the San Diego Blood Bank is always in need of blood.  He took such pleasure in being able to donate whole blood, plasma, platelets and packed cells religiously, knowing it would go to help people in need.  I am sure there has been a void since Dad was last able to donate back in April of last year.  He was donating using the apheresis machine every three weeks since his retirement in 2002.

Well, I am sure I am in store for a wall of emotions at some point, but due to being very busy this week with necessary stuff that no one ever wants to do, I have been holding it together pretty well.  I go back to work tomorrow, so I was trying to get as much done as possible.  I have been going to therapy since Mom got sick, and my therapist says that since I have been grieving for the past nine months, that I am probably doing pretty good.  Only time will tell.  I truly miss my Dad.

Mom continues to struggle.  The grieving process is a struggle for Mom.  She just misses him so much.  And that impacts her mood so much.  When she is down, she really goes to the extremes.  She is back to feeling out of control, and doing anything she can to try and regain any control possible.  I wish she would focus all of that energy on her physical therapy, but the latest is that she wants her feeding tube removed.  I am just so hesitant to go down that road at this time.  She weighed 92 lbs today when they weighed her, which is still a little low in my book, but I think that the only reason she weighs that is because of the nutrition she receives through her feeding tube.  She just doesn't eat enough to maintain any sort of weight, and once again, her willingness to eat is based on her mood.  I will just have to wait and see how we can get things to play out with her.  Hopefully, time, patience and understanding will prevail.

Much love to all!